A year ago, I decided that I wanted to learn to love myself. Before my 30th birthday, I wanted to look in the mirror and love the person staring back at me instead of ripping her apart. I changed my diet and worked out everyday, but I knew that wasn't going to be enough - I was still sad. I quickly figured out that I also needed to love from within in order to find true happiness.
My mom has been doing Reiki with Carol for years and suggested that I try it. I saw how much Carol helped her, but being skeptical, I didn't understand how energy could heal or help someone. I didn't know how it could provide peace or a new perspective, but it's your mom so you do what she says. Than after my first session, I understood. There was no judgement, no lecture, no questions, just a safe space for me to sit long enough to steady my mind and think about the person I wanted to become and why. The truth was, it was always within me, just clouded by the stress and anxiety life brings.
Every session, I was able to see what I needed to do in my journey to get closer to my goal. Carol helped ground me and her energy provided me with clarity. I decided to be positive, let go of the past and the things you can't change, move my bedroom furniture around, build a better relationship with my sister, start yoga teacher training and than surely enough, I started to like the person staring back at me a little bit more each day.
It's been a year and my whole life has changed. I can honestly look in the mirror now and love who I see. It took me 29 years, but I realized that the person you were doesn't always have to be who you are. You can change. You can be and do anything you want.
As Carol and I's connection grew stronger, she was also able to see things during our sessions. We would share what we saw and now they are usually one in the same. She has grown to be a friend and I'm so grateful to have her in my life. She is truly an amazing person. I am so excited for our many sessions to come. Reiki was more than I ever thought it could be. I am so glad that I gave it chance.